Eminem opened up about the means his wrestle with drug habit was a continuing, if unseen, presence all through a lot of his early profession in a brand new as-told-to in XXL.

In the piece, Em defined that medication actually solely turned a component of his life after the launch of his 1999 album, The Slim Shady LP. He and his mates would make common journeys from Los Angeles to Tijuana, Mexico to purchase capsules like Vicodin, and the rapper recalled one occasion the place customs officers threw one man “on the floor and begin[ed] pulling capsules out his pockets and shit.” 

Eminem stated he and his mates nonetheless managed to get by, and looking out again on the incident, he admits, “[I]t ought to have been one of the first indicators to me, however I by no means thought that I had an issue. I simply actually, actually preferred medication. As I began making a bit of cash, I may purchase extra of them.” 

As his fame elevated, and medicines turned extra plentiful — particularly when he went on tour — Eminem stated he began to appreciate he was battling habit, however nonetheless managed to “preserve it on the low and preserve it collectively” as a lot as attainable. Things actually bought dangerous in between 2000’s The Marshall Mathers LP and 2002’s The Eminem Show, when he was taking a combination of Vicodin, Valium, and alcohol. At one level, he even added the sleep help Ambien, noting, “I might take a bit of to carry out, which you’d suppose doesn’t make sense, however Ambien is a thoughts eraser. So, if you happen to don’t fall asleep on it, you get on this bizarre comatose state.”

Em stated one second the place his habit spilled over to the public got here throughout an look on BET’s 106 and Park with 50 Cent and G-Unit. “We carried out ‘You Don’t Know’ on the present after which we did an interview afterward,” he recalled. “That’s when the wheels began coming off. One of the hosts was speaking to me and I couldn’t perceive a phrase she was saying. 50 needed to cowl for me and reply each query… If you watch again to that interview now, you possibly can discover it. That’s when everybody round me knew, ‘He’s fucked up. Something’s improper with him.’”

Then, after the 2006 dying of his buddy and fellow rapper Proof, Eminem stated his “habit went by the fuckin’ roof.” He stated he had as many as “10 drug sellers at one time” and was taking “75 to 80 Valiums” an evening. A number of months after Proof’s dying, he remembered going to the toilet, falling over, after which “waking up with fucking tubes in me and shit, and I couldn’t discuss. I couldn’t do something. I didn’t perceive the place I used to be and what the fuck occurred.”

In 2007, Eminem suffered a methadone overdose, however he bought sober the following 12 months. Though he didn’t contact on his restoration the XXL piece, he did supply this reflection on his battle with habit, “When I wrap it up in a nutshell, I notice that every one the heaviest drug utilization and habit spanned solely about 5 years of my life. It’s loopy for me to suppose again. It felt like a very long time when it was occurring, however trying again at it now, it wasn’t that lengthy of a time for my downside to blow up because it did.”

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