When rising pop singer Yadam went to Madrid’s Pride celebration in June, he selected an outfit that he knew would strike up a dialog again house in Venezuela. “They inform us it’s okay to be queer so long as we’re not effeminate,” he captioned a publish about that day. “Today, I’m sporting a skirt and crop high for the primary time, and I proceed feeling like a free man, proud and comfortable.”

Yadam fortunately seems again at that second. After all, sporting skirts in public and singing overtly about queer love is a stark distinction to the younger closeted teenager he as soon as was rising up between the U.S. and Venezuela, surrounded by an ultra-Christian household and neighborhood.

“Queer individuals in Latin America and different homophobic locations have had their love tales robbed,” he tells Rolling Stone. “Writing songs was my approach of constructing myself really feel understood… I’m making an attempt to be the buddy I by no means had once I was a teen.”

On Friday, Yadam — who Rolling Stone named as a Latin Act Set to Make It Big in 2023 — will launch Belamor, his debut album. He described it as a “three-year remedy session,” full of songs he wrote that seize his expertise as a queer man popping out, experiencing love in secret, and surviving heartbreak whereas out and free.

He drew inspiration from his old flame, a boy he had emotions for as a teen. But the 2 of them might by no means be in a public relationship. After 5 years of loving one another within the shadows, Yadam selected to be free and are available out to his household. The boy, Yadam says, opted to as an alternative pursue a job within the church. “I used to be executed with hiding… He’s by no means going to return out, and that’s his alternative,” he says. He provides that the boy “is aware of the album is all about him.”

From his bed room in Paris, and rocking octagon-shaped glasses he designed himself, Yadam breaks down his 5 favourite songs from Belamor.

Otras Mujeres

“Otras Mujeres” was the final music I wrote. I set to work on it in London with Sam Dixon, who has labored with Sia and Adele, and he wished to work with Latino artists. We acquired collectively in London and it was actually enjoyable. The refrain is, “I do know that you just’re in search of me however in different girls.” Growing up as a homosexual particular person, there are a variety of discreet guys who make the most of the truth that you’re already out to make use of you after which not likely settle for [their sexuality] in public, and then you definately fall in love with them, since you’re silly. [Laughs] This music is all about that annoying sport that exists due to homophobia. It’s me telling myself that I’ve to respect myself. “I do know that you just’re homosexual as fuck, and also you need me. Go forward and fake, however you’re not gonna play with me.” That’s me making an attempt to inform myself I’m lastly robust sufficient. It’s truly the primary queer music to play on the radio in Venezuela. Imagine, like being on the radio in a homophobic nation, after which simply having this singer be like, “I do know you’re considering, I imply, once you’re with different girls,” I’m fairly certain lots of people have modified the station. It makes me actually, actually so proud.


I wished to begin the album with an “I’m sorry” as an alternative of pointing fingers. When you write love songs, that are often devoted to your ex, you at all times level the finger. My mother at all times says once you’re pointing one, there are three pointing at you. I feel it’s additionally simply very wholesome to consider the issues that perhaps you probably did mistaken as an alternative of simply blaming any person else. I wished the album to begin on this wholesome approach the place you’re not simply attacking an individual, but additionally placing your self on the market and being like, “Maybe there’s issues I would like to alter too.” I believed it was wholesome to begin this entire love story with a sorry. My solely boyfriend I’ve ever had, we have been collectively for 3 years, was there once I began writing Belamor till proper earlier than I launched it. He truly did the typography for the duvet artwork. He was so essential to me, as a result of he made me see the distinction between what love is like when it’s not corresponded, and what love is like once you’re truly accepting to like any person, and also you’re truly in a relationship. It was lovely, however then it ended. And I by no means understood why. It’s one other traumatizing story. Album two coming quickly.


“Software” is one in all two songs in English. I did it at 4 within the morning right here in my condominium on this very room. And I used to be with this microphone; you can nonetheless hear the noise, it’s not completely recorded. When I attempted to supply it within the studio, the emotion wasn’t there. I simply mastered it the way it was so what you hear is the primary recording I ever did. I by no means labored on it. I’m actually keen on this one, as a result of it’s essentially the most heartbreaking one in the event you actually hearken to the lyrics and the temper. It’s mainly me telling this particular person to by no means come into my life if he’s not going to remain eternally. One of the issues that I’m terrified of essentially the most is abandonment. The undeniable fact that nothing is eternally might be what I hate essentially the most. When you meet individuals you would like they will at all times keep, however both they go otherwise you’re the one who strikes away. The music is me making an attempt to surprise what’s going on contained in the particular person’s head. Computers have the software program and the {hardware}. I attempt to inform myself the software program of an individual has their coronary heart and their {hardware} is their mind as a result of the mind is what they do. But the guts is the emotion. If you could have a virus in your software program, your pc is fucked. My favourite lyric of the entire album is “Did any person damage you?” If you’ve been damage, you’re in all probability going to like on this fucked up approach or be imply to an individual.


Quisieras De Mí

This was a poem at first. It’s me actually telling my ex-boyfriend how a lot I cherished him. It was me feeling cherished for the primary time. I wrote it, fascinated with how I felt earlier than we have been collectively and the way I used to be falling in love with him and questioning if he would ever love me as effectively. From the start, I say, “Words aren’t sufficient to brighten your altar.” I simply wish to be in your thoughts. I hope you’re keen on me as a lot as I really like you. One of essentially the most lovely moments in my life was once I acquired to play this for him. I found whereas enjoying it for him that he used to play the guitar when he was little. He acquired the guitar and realized play it. It’s in all probability one of the lovely recollections ever that I’ve. Because Belamor is about remembering a love story, regardless that it resulted in a tragic approach, I’m glad that I get to maintain that stunning reminiscence. I’m glad I made a decision to place this all on the album as a result of I didn’t wish to. It simply hurts. Maybe I ought to be over my relationship after a 12 months, however it’s onerous to recover from it when every part you’ve been working on is placing your feelings on the market. I simply can’t cowl up the wound proper now.


“Feliz” is the final music on the album however it was the primary one I ever wrote. I wrote it at a Christmas occasion in 2018. There have been a variety of {couples} that have been preventing. I used to be like, “Why are individuals collectively in the event that they aren’t comfortable collectively?” That’s once I realized I didn’t wish to be with somebody who wasn’t comfortable being with me. I began singing, “If you wish to depart, I’m not going to maintain you from leaving if I can’t make you content.” When you actually love any person, you must settle for their decisions and perceive that their happiness is probably not with you. This music is tough as fuck. Sometimes our finales aren’t at all times felices, however you perceive they have been mandatory. I really feel like a love physician right here!

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